Whirlwind.
It's kind of how I feel the last school year has been for me. I've never had such a challenging year as this one. Students have been hard-work has been overwhelming, and I've really struggled with my physical and spiritual health. I sort of dropped off the planet-hence the negligence to my blog and visiting other blogs.
I've struggled to just 'be'.
I just returned from a trip to Disneyland. I love that place. Lots. I saw so many little families there on their Spring Break vacations-and it really hit me. I really want to be a wife and a mommy. It's a deep desire I have-one I've had my whole life. I keep wondering if it really is ever going to happen for me. It's hard-being in the profession I am in-there isn't much opportunity for me to meet someone. I work with almost all women...all day. And this year will make a total of about 270 little students for me. But of course, I knew that-coming into this line of work. I am grateful for the experiences I have had, however, as a teacher. It's been such a journey for me.
But I really do want to have my own little family journey. Someday soon.
Time is slipping away...not that I am old, but, honestly, a lot of my close friends I grew up with have had all the children they are going to have at their mid-30's...and are just watching them grow up now. Anyways, spending time at Disneyland was sort of a 'millionth' wake up call for me. I want this future that Heavenly Father has promised me. I need to find out what ELSE I need or should/should not be doing to have that dream become my reality.
Here is an update on my life--4.17.11
-I live alone in an apartment complex and LOVE it
-I am the 1st counselor in Relief Society in a mid-singles ward
-I am just ending my spring break vacation and dragging my feet to return to work!
-Got food poisoning in Vegas and am recovering-so I watched 20 hours of TV on the couch :)
-I am attending BYU Women's Conference for the first time at the end of the month
-I have 6 weeks of school left until my summer break!
-Recently found out I have 'Femoro-Acetabular Impingement Syndrome'
-I am scheduled for hip surgery on May 10th-will spend my summer once again, recovering :(
-I recently found the ONLY exercise that I can do-jogging in the water with a floating belt
-I'm addicted to a new chocolate..Lindt Dark Chocolate with Chili. Mmmm
8 comments:
Thanks for the update! I think you are amazing, and you will be an amazing wife and mother--hopefully very soon. I pray for you every day to have your dream. :)
I'm glad that you posted and that you finally went to the doctor and they figured out what was going on. As for the ONLY exercise you can do - it's a good one and a great workout. Many athletes have trained like that after a serious injury and have not lost anything in their training. So keep your head up. Everything will work out.
I love you and hope you find the happiness you want. The only reason you haven't is because you haven't been in a place to meet men. Because once they meet you, how could they resist?
I simply adore you. You will be one incredible wife and mother. Thank you so much for the update. I can't wait to see you in May.
Hooray, you're back! You are going to be the BEST mom and wife! I hope it happens soon!
Don't give up hope...I only got married a year and half ago...and still no kids, (but that's kinda complicated anyway). Some amazing Guy is out there for you...just got to be a bit more patient!
Karen, I love you! I was going through looking for an invite to my sister in law's blog and found yours in my gmail from a while back. So now I have a few family members' blogs bookmarked and yours :). I love reading your perspective on things. I totally understand where you are coming from 100% with the wanting to move on and be a wife and mom. Don't ever give up -- he is out there for you somewhere. Meanwhile just keep being the kind of person you hope your future kids will be. <3 <3 <3
love reading over ur lists!
did u ever check out on my blog list- garrett's blog, he is a friend of mine who is single and lds!! i think he is fabulous and not sure why he isn't married myself, so you out ti check out his blog and tell me what u think, u can even leave me a message on facebook about it!
loves!!!
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